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Has been gone for far to long



Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Holiday Drama

So here is the long story made short:
My aunt was married with a single about 6 year old son, she did not work while her loving husband worked all day and night so she could. She met a man on an adult site and left her child and husband to met this man who lived across the country. She got knocked up and her husband, my uncle and her got a divorce, idk if shes engaged or what to her baby daddy, anyhow my uncle is happier than ever with his new gf and my cousin loves her as well, i have never seen them so happy, and to make thing seven better this Christmas i get to meet my new uncle and cousin, how awkward is that?

Monday, December 20, 2010

Gay rights

You know how they say they have to keep church and state separate, than why stop gays from having their rights? A woman was not allowed to be with her dieing lover because they were gay. If someone chooses to be gay and you truly think they will go to hell than why should you worry, its not like you will go to hell. Plus god is forgiving, if you ask you shall receive. Its better to admit who you are than lie to everyone you meet, your self, and live unhappy for the rest of your life. You cant choose who you fall in love with, and the government has no right to tell us who we can and can not love, that is what a dictator dose, i thought this was a free country, i guess i was wrong about you america.

Friday, December 17, 2010

Speech project might change my school

My speech teacher is amazing. She is taking our small class of 7 kids and giving us projects than can help our school. This project is called " Public service announcement movie" or P.S.A. Video for short. We chose the topic bulling after we talked for an hour an a half about all of the types of bullying we have seen. The teacher than told us to during the day write down the insult and bullying we see since her class is the last this is what i have:
"I am going to beat that earing wearing fagot" kid being insulted was just walking by."I hate that bitch" ."She is a whore, shes a skank, biggest slut I know". "See taht group of black kids coming, lets get out of here before we get shot"."What a bitch". "shes a fucking moron". As a joke "Hi I have aids" And many more.

My school has no compassion, they do not understand that words hurt. A scar on the heart never heals it always bleeds, only the one that made the scar can sow it up.

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Im a beat him up.

I over heard a fellow student threatening to beat up a homosexual. I cant believe how cruel people can be to those that they fear, if its a religion thing, god is forgiving, he will forgive them. And its better to do that sin than lie to everyone you meet, your self, and live unhappy for the rest of your life, than just admitting who you are and be happy.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Soft room and an uncomfortable coat

If I had one more year of high school I believe I would lose my mind. The constant drama and gossip. The rumors of the most ridiculous lies. The horrible attitudes and lack of compassion not caring if they drive someone to death. Is what  I have to deal with 5 days a week. There lack of knowledge that people have feelings and that they can be hurt. Simple insults, friends talking about you behind your back as you sit there wanting to tell them that you can easily hear every single word that comes from their horrid mouths, but you don't. Well, I don't. I'm the kid that you get picked on if you become friends with them, I never did anything but be myself. Society is afraid of difference, afraid that the unique and wonderful person will over shadow their bland lives so they make their lives horrid so they can feel better as they stand out. I hope I speak for others when I say I can and will not take this anymore, I will be who I am and nothing will stand in my way.

Monday, December 13, 2010

How a teacher saved my life


I was going through quite a depression, I had no passion, social anxiety, and was getting ignored constantly. It all changed when I came into my Tenth grade English class. The teacher was an amazing and kind woman, she never gave up on me and continued to push me forward. I slowly realized that I had something to live for, writing. My teacher not only gave me great knowledge, but also my reason to live. I can never thank her enough for all that she has done, because of her I can look positively on life and I now know that what i say can make a difference, so thank you Mrs. D, from the bottom of my heart.

Friday, December 10, 2010

Books


Books, their amazing soft pages, there letters worth more than the finest gold or diamond. The simple covers that open to a world of new emotions and wonders. Oh the stories they can tell and do. Their soft corners as I carry them in my arms. The smell of a new book, oh how it differs from that of the old. The yellow pages show age and love, but the writing on the covers show no love. For what are we without books my dear, but simple fools ingoing our fears. For with no knowledge there are skills we lack, say good bye to your dreams, and yellow to that crack. The world is better when a books is born, so open its pages and let your brain absorb, the stories it has to tell to let you know, that when you have a book your never alone.